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Once a month I try to connect with my hidden thoughts and feelings by writing for 5 minutes and then reflecting on my unedited writing. The post may be filled with misspellings and grammatical errors but it will contain my true voice. If you would like to know why I’m doing this activity you can click on the link below to read my first unedited post.

Unedited Mind

– 5 minutes

Many of things has changed since I last wrote. I’ve been busy with my wife’s business and taking care of the kids. It doesn’t mean I haven’t been writing. I’ve been submitting an article a week for the Good Men Project, which has tested my ability to write on a weekly basis. Overall I’m blessed. I have a great opportunity as a blogger and my wife’s business is slowly growing. What is there not to like about my life. There is however many things I can do more to make life happier. I could write everyday for my blog. I could exercise daily. My back is really hurting since I’ve gained a few more pounds. I haven’t been able to work on my book, which is what I know will bring me the most joy. It’s amazing being away from my old job at the university has made it harder for me to feel motivated to write my book. I don’t have anyone to share my thoughts with other then my wife who is probably tired of me talking her ear off. I need to buckle down and take life by the neck. That sounds like a horrible analogy. I need to kick myself into gear and like everyone else in the country I’m planning on setting and acting on my goals in January. Hoping for consistent growth. No matter how great or small. Just need to keep growing.

– Reflection

In my last unedited post I was determined to write for 30 minutes a day. As you can see since that post I still haven’t written every day. I do write when I need to submit my article for The Good Men Project, however, I usually wait till Tuesday to start writing my piece.

Trying to find the motivation to write is currently feeling strenuous. I have too many excuses to not write. I use my children as an excuse. My wife’s business. I just seem to be stuck in a lazy haze.

What can I do?

1. Stop talking about it and step forward.
2. Take responsibility and give no excuses.
3. Understand that new habits take time. Success is measured by every step we take no matter how small it may be.

Many of us understand that changing our habits isn’t easy. It’s rare that you implement a change that sticks the first time around, therefore, we should expect failure but we can never yield to it. No matter how often we get knocked down we need to keep standing up. If we do we’ll finally become the person we always hoped to be.

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Picture: flickr/David Truss